waiting gurl

“Desperate eyes

Heart with a flickering sense of hope

Dubious mind

Threatened ego”

All these are some of the characteristics that each and everyone of us must have experienced in one of the phases of life.

Life is not always fair, it maintains a fine balance in everything. This also includes one’s ego, attitude, esteem, pride and the whole mortal idea of who the person is. Thus, when people get head-strong, life tend to push them down from the highest alp and bring them back to reality. Or worse, when people imagine themselves to be indestructible, life tends to crush them down to get them back to senses.

This is the way life operates. The period of resuscitation is the hardest of all. The person in this stage, is similar to that of a phoenix. They have to accept all the shame, humiliation, embarrassment, disgrace in order to rise up again and become eminent. This duration of time, the time to accept and seek for the right opportunity is what I call as the “Wait”. This “Wait” is actually more dreadful and unbearable than it sounds, as it has the potent of casting oneself into a new being.

Apart from superficial world, one’s inner self is enough to do the damages. Human mind is a very powerful, complex and a tricky place to be. It makes people to believe completely in an instance, and become vacillating by the next stance. Likewise unresolved fears, which gets more aggravated at the event of a “Wait”, also contribute greatly to the damages orchestrated in collaboration with the mind.

Thus an unstable fearful mind makes everything go loony and the person loses sight of the track back to reality. This is the time when people have to hold on to themselves and use hope as an anchor back to reality and happiness. Now finding these anchors can be quite challenging, but once they are in position, one can boom back with a whoop into the present.

Once after being back, the person must not forget the hardships and the pain endured during the “Wait”, and must start to live a more meaningful life. This also includes the unannounced edict that the victim should always be considerate and thoughtful of others’ situation and act accordingly. This assertion is undertaken since the victim is now capable of being in other person’s shoe and knows the agony of the “Wait”.

PS : All these views are my perspectives of how a person fall and gets back to one’s feet. I’m truly sorry if I have differed from your opinion and hurt any one of you. Feel free to correct me and enlighten me.


Time can heal a broken heart, But it can also break a “Waiting” heart !

Until next time, Hasta la vista !


Little “Self-Love” on this Valentine’s

After being stranded in the middle of the road for the hundredth time,

She shrugged off the unknown faces filled with despise glime.

Wrapping her jacket around her suspicious attire,

The ‘four hundred dollar’ in her palm pulled her close to the nearby diner.

Spending the whole pay on her valentine meal,

Her eyes sparkled with content for the time with herself, like it’s a big deal.

After days and nights of working for others,

She finally felt at ease, as now there’s no need to pother.

As she walked back to her home all alone,

The joy she felt inside was beyond the entire living zone.



Hello Folks, finally I’m back from my 6-month long hiatus and I wanted to start off this year on the most romantic day of the month. Love is not essentially based on ‘giving to another’. It is also how a person treats oneself. “Self-Love” is something that I really wanted you guys to know about.

Always remember,

             Only when you love and treat yourself in a good way, other people will serve you with the respect you deserve !!










Mind of Mine !

In the memory of a cherish relationship that got to its abrupt end without a goodbye.

Recently I was told that one can never hold on to something that is obviously falling apart.And that you or your karma,is not at all the reason for that relationship to end.Sometimes it is better to let go and be free,rather than clinging tightly to people and trying hard to keep them together.They also tell that it’s better to not take these relationship issues to the head and keep on thinking about it.But I fail in following this piece of vital advice whenever I’m in the middle of a relationship crisis.

Every relationship has its ups and downs.The ones that are strong enough always strive and survive.But those which are feeble always crumble to its oblivion.They are long forgotten along with their once treasured memories.I have always wondered how people get themselves free so easily from all that emotional attachments over some silly mishaps.It is disheartening and sad to see ‘once-best friends’,glancing at each other like strangers.

It’s human nature and tendency to commit mistakes.People involving in relationships must be definitely knowing about the other person’s situations and problems.So when a person do something wrong,they must be the one to understand from their shoes,instead of criticizing them.Even though if the person commits a grave and an unforgivable mistake,the friend must be crazy enough to forgive the other because that’s what determines their bonding and affection towards each other.

It is my tendency to think in a way that my karma takes a toll on my social and personal life.So whenever something goes wrong with my peer relationship (even though I’m not the cause for any trouble),I start to think of all the wrongs that I’ve committed and start to feel guilty.And I also believe that all relationships should end the way it started (ie) in a mutual way with a goodbye.I once didn’t have the chance to say my goodbyes to a treasured and cherished relationship.And I regret it till date.So I always take initiative and try mending relationships which are in the verge of breaking off…So that they don’t regret it one day like I do.

Call me old-fashioned,but I believe that people do not meet and get into a relationship without a reason.Again I may be wrong,but these are all my views and perspectives.I’m so sorry if I’ve hurt people who don’t agree with me.

Legends tell that people are bonded over lifetimes…It’s a sin to break those sacred bonds over meaningless things !



There was a time when life was easy,

with no ups and downs on its way !

Things were better as they were,

with no dreamy surmise then and now.

Words were true and acts were real,

with no stupid reckoning protruding in between !

Now this may look like ‘golden days’ – once cherished but

now with a little pale off its gleam.

This “past time” can turn about – the clock can be reversed,

if no firsthand expectations are yet ready to be revealed !!



The Versatile Blogger Award !!


Hello folks,I have been nominated by the lovely and sweet grevisangel73 for this blogger award and it’s quite an honor for me.Firstly I have to apologize for the delay in responding to the nomination.Next,I’m super excited and super happy in participating among the nominations ! Please do check out my nominator’s blog site as it is so interesting and worth for a read.

Rules :

  1. You have to thank the person who nominated you for this award and provide a link to their blog.
  2. Link the nominees and inform them about their nomination.
  3. Nominate at least 15 bloggers of your choice
  4. Share 7 facts about yourself.

Well,I’m kind of a secretive person but I guess rules are rules,so I’ll share a few facts about me and my life.I hope it’s worth your read !

  • I have a thing for butterflies..Whenever I see a butterfly on my way,I consider it to be a good vibe for me.I’m not all superstitious,but I have my own beliefs.
  • Every weekend,it is customary for me to have a night ride.The wind in the hair,cold breeze,twinkling stars,calm surrounding really gets me.It allows me to clear my thoughts.
  • I’m an avid reader.I’m mostly into young adult fiction,mystery,tragedy,romance and gothic fiction novels.
  • Music really takes my mind off whenever I’m on the edge.
  • I really value friendship over relationship.It has been my strongest forte at all times.
  • I always have the habit of saying “yes” to everyone for everything (in a good sense).I feel that when a person has come to me for something with the belief that I’ll help them,if I say ‘no’ then it equals to breaking of all hope they had on me.
  • Whenever I get a little low,I always turn to F.R.I.E.N.D.S ,the series never fails to cheer me up and I’m a ardent fan of it.

Hope I didn’t bore you people ! Now here are my nominees for this award…

  1. The Sporadic Scribbler
  2. crystalamayy
  3. Writing Natural
  4. muffled voice..!
  5. doodlessworld
  6. youronlinepal
  7. ODD ball
  8. Musings of a 20 Something Mom
  9. aishwaryasivakumar
  10. Thriti’s Blog
  11. harshuweb
  12. The Shimmer Within Her
  13. namrataspeaks
  14. Minion Head with a human brain
  15. Hummings

All of the above mentioned blogs are unique in their own way and inspire me in day to day life.Their works stand out and never fails to impress.These people always kind of set the bar high everytime and produce great pieces.It’s my pleasure to nominate the mentioned fellow bloggers.Please do check their blogs and posts,I highly recommend it.

Nominees…if you choose not to participate,then you don’t have to participate (because it can be time consuming), and if you enjoyed this post please don’t forget to like, follow, share and comment.

Have a happy day !!




As a small fish in uncharted waters she struggled,

Not knowing that the very struggle will harden her troubles and mold her.

‘Small fish’,they said…and nabbed her of all the trust and faith

That she once had on her fellow fishes-how foolish of me,she thought.

Wanting to change her for better companions…the wild possibilities outgrew her,

Finally producing what she really wasn’t…a pleaser and a loser !

Once known for skills and no-objection,always an easy prey for big fishes to pry on.

And so the word spread and the small fish regretted its transformation…

The firstly abandoning fishes were the ones she thought will stay by her side during difficulties !

Time answered all confusions of the small fish with instances from near future,

That her purpose among her present group was fulfilled and no longer required

Leaving the small fish all alone once again !!

“Is this life ?”,shouted the frustrated fish towards the boundless ocean,

“This is just the mirage of what life will be !”,boomed back ocean with lively lessons.



Hello all,this is my first time in writing poetry.So please bear with me and help me improve with my poetry skills.Hope you all enjoy it (and I hope I conveyed what exactly I had in my mind from my inspiration !!)…Fingers crossed and waiting for your valuable feedbacks 🙂



two sisters running on beach holding hands                        Hello everyone ! First,I want to apologize for not being active for the past two months.I have been occupied with a lot of troubling thoughts lately.Next,I want to thank all of you for being such a comfort during my unsettled times.I managed my days with the help of all your inspiring and really touching posts,which is the only thing that kept me sane.Please bear with my melancholic tune of the day !!

Recently,I’ve been wondering about how all people have a “support system” and “got your back”kind of pals in their life.And I have been reflecting how these people manage to stay in the same level throughout their lives.Friendship is a very beautiful and a ‘delicate’ way of being related to one another.It can either bloom or wither in a matter of second.But,when a friendship that has lasted for almost a decade becomes frail and lose touch,what happens to the ‘once-friends’ ? How do they cope up with the loss of a friend ?

The worst scenario is that-when a person’s “long lasting friendship” suddenly halts and misunderstanding builds up,then nothing worse can happen than ‘once two close friends’ being ‘just friends’. It’s really sad to see such a pleasing bond turn into something that’s not.And some times these pals don’t express the “lately built up tension” and ease it up with their friends.

This is where jealousy steps in and ruins the left out bond betwixt the two.When one of them find support and comfort in her outer circle,the other becomes envious and the ugly cold war begins.So,as you can see,what was believed to be a beautiful relationship turned sour.All this,because one of them didn’t find it in themselves to let go of their ego and speak up…because they didn’t think that they owe it to their bond to mend it…because they didn’t think that they owe it to themselves.

What will be the state of either of these people when they meet years later in their lives…will they even share a smile (or) just turn away.Just think ! I’m not categorizing all friendships to be stereotyped in this same way.I’m just pointing out some bonds-which were thicker than blood once ! I’m so sorry if I’ve hurt anyone of you through my views…these are merely my perspectives.

                       Remember,every ‘good friend’ was once a ‘stranger’. Don’t make them into ‘STRANGERS WITH MEMORIES’ !!


Mystery Blogger Award !!


This award was created by Okoto Enigma

Hi people…I super excited about this award because it’s my first award in my blogging history.I was nominated by the lovely Rei ,So thank you so much for that and please make sure to check her blog.


– Put the award logo/image on your blog
– List the rules
– Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog
– Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
– Tell your readers 3 things about yourself and answer questions from your nominator.
– You can nominate up to 20 people
– (optional) Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
– Ask your nominees and five questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question
– Share a link to your best post(s)

Three things about myself:

#. I’m a night person.

#. I have hard time trusting people as my trust gets easily broken so often by people I care.

#. I always stop myself from attaching to someone so close,to avoid myself from getting hurt.

Questions from my nominee:

1.What is your Christmas tradition?                                      

Basically I’m not a Christian,so that explains that I don’t have any traditions being followed on Christmas.Anyway,I enjoy helping and decorating Christmas tree at my friend’s place.  

2.A bad habit, you wish you could stop?                              

I have this habit of checking my phone often,even though I have no notifications in my phone.This is one habit which I’m fighting against.

3.What is your current favorite song?                                  

I’m addicted to “I don’t wanna live forever”by Zayn and Taylor Swift from “Fifty Shades Darker”. 

4.Your worst pet peeves?

One of my biggest pet peeves is how people fancy chokers.

5.Are you tea or a coffee person?

My day never ends without a cup of hot steaming coffee,so I guess that makes me a “Coffee Person”.

Questions for my nominees:

  • What would you want the most in the beginning of the upcoming New Year?
  • Are you a night or a day person?
  • What is your favorite song of all time?
  • If you have an hour left to convey your final goodbyes,whom would you call first?
  • What is that one place,where you would wish to go within your time of life?

I nominate:

As for my best posts, I don’t know really. Why don’t you let me know which of my posts you liked the most?

Have a prosperous New Year folks !! Let this new beginning bring happiness to all of you !


Till DEATH do us apart…


We all,are familiar with the phrase “Till death do us apart !”…It’s most likely to be heard in weddings.Well,I’ve been thinking,does this phrase necessarily have to mean the ‘to be wedded bride and groom’ ?? I don’t think so.So here’s a small spoiler alert regarding this post…It is not at all a ROMANTIC (or) a HAPPILY EVER AFTER sort of post,it’s about death.Now,many of you might have concluded me for a melancholic person,which I am not.Today,one of my college senior deceased suddenly.It was quite a shock for most of us.She was one of the most vibrant person I’ve ever met in my life.

That’s when I realized the value people give to the living and the dead.That’s when I realized that,life is too uncertain and unpredictable.In reaching fame and affluence,we never realize that all these things are temporary…and anytime they can be taken away form us (ie) we can be taken away from them,that’s the irony of it.When I was thinking about the phrase,I was wondering “Maybe the phrase meant the body and the soul of the person !!…That body is a mere cocoon for the soul to finally fly away,once it’s ready.Like a butterfly growing stronger,day by day in its shell,the soul too might be preparing itself to redeem itself one day and be free.

I know that it’s a bit difficult to perceive the death of a person as a ‘Parting of soul to a better place’,especially the death of our dear ones.But,when it is seen in this way,it’ll be as a means to honor the deceased and celebrate their life.Thus the phrase might have also meant that,”Till the day the soul leaves the body,the body promises to aid the soul in all ways possible”. My new way of understanding this phrase may be a little unacceptable,especially since the term is closely associated with marriage and happiness.

But,people have to understand that it’s the power of words,that they can mean differently in different situations.Alas,this is how they meant to me today evening.I hope her soul rest in peace and will pray for her folks to find solace in the time being.Once again,It’s my perspective on experiences,that I had in my life and I’m so sorry if I’ve hurt any of you (or) against any of your views.

                        People don’t leave us,just because they’ve found a better place to reside….it’s because they are confident that we can move on in life without them,spreading their ‘missing smile and comforting hope’ as we go on !!


Sense of being FREE !



What does “Being and feeling FREE mean ? “…I’ve been have having this question,unanswered for a very long time.In day to day life,we see and meet new people who perfectly finish their given task,as well as have time for fun,even in between those pressure filled situations.Does that mean people who handle stressful situation well are all ‘feeling free’ all the time ?

In the game of running behind success and getting hold of recognition,people seem to be happy and enjoy their every moment in life.Then,does that mean they are all feeling “free” by doing whatever they wish and whatever pleases them ? Well…it always stays as a hypothetical question for which each people have different answers.In my opinion,I have a different perspective of what ‘BEING AND FEELING FREE’ mean to me.Being free doesn’t always have to be loosening up of reins in one’s life (or) fulfilling responsibilities thereby striking off a commitment from the list.

Doing our job without any flaws and finishing them perfectly always makes us feel “free” at that moment….till the next task is assigned to us.Doing ‘what pleases us and what provides us eternal happiness’ can surely make us “boss of our own”. But some accomplishments makes us feel good only when they are showcased to others (ie) to prove ourselves to others,and when this happens,the accomplishment loses its significance and once again becomes a “latent task”. When we decide to loosen our reins and be “free”,people will start taking control of our life and they’ll start taking decisions for us.When we do something just to strike off the list,then that too becomes a burden (on seeing the rest of the list) upon us rather than freeing us.

Now you may all be wondering “THEN WHAT REALLY IS,TO FEEL FREE ?” .Well…that is all my confusion is about.But even though I have these sort of questions and have hundreds of different replies,I always believe that…..”People can really feel FREE when they have a “clear conscience (or) peace of mind”. Having a positive mental health always aids in making oneself to feel calm and composed,thereby to really enjoy the “free”feeling.Positive mental health refers to the balance that one has between themselves and the surrounding environment.When this balance gets disrupted,that’s when people feel suffocated and confusions begin to cloud their judgements.When we have our minds sane and sound,we can always feel and be FREE,even when facing the unendurable and demanding situations of all.A calm mind can always ensure promising outcome,which cannot even be thought of during a ‘fight (or) flight situation’. Such a decision can inevitably in return bring a peace of mind to that person.The serenity of one’s mind has the power to alter the entire existing scenario and lighten up the atmosphere”.

And as always,all these views are from my perspectives and if I have hurt any one of you,I’m truly sorry.Hope you all enlighten me with your definition of ‘what being free’ means !!

To conclude with a beautiful quote…”A BLISSFUL MIND ALWAYS OPEN DOORS TO A HAPPY AND FREE LIFE !!”. Best wishes in finding your own sense of being FREE ! 🙂